Hey everybody, it’s Ezra here again.

These few weeks have been rather life changing for me, being a working ‘adult and all’ but thanks to God and his blessings I’ve managed to pull through. I can’t fully say I feel at home here but stuff has happened and I feel more involved now. I’ve been struggling with what I now realize is the loss of innocence and my identity. That said I’m still searching for my place in this department and how I can serve (Father I need to know). 

I feel that God has stripped me of alot of what I used to be. My identity that was based on how well I could perform, my inner peace, my strength, all of these things. I can’t say that I’m feeling really victorious now, and I surely can’t see the end right now but I want to trust in God for my providence. I only pray that my compassion and people over possessions part of myself does not disappear with it.

God is good. Cliche is the word that comes to mind whenever I thought of that phrase. I’ve always had a struggle mentality in which I would never expect good from anything. Circumstances have made me view everything as a challenge and never dared to hope. Recently, God has been good enough to put someone into my life who has made me hope for better things.

The distance is killing me, but father I’ll wait.

Anyway, I feel much better now (Thank you Father) and feel less overwhelmed. This is Ezra signing out.